Medicine is here and we start our countdown!

Its beginning to become real!!! Medications arrived and let me tell you there were a ton of needles, and from someone who used to be scared of needles it was a tad bit much. I unloaded the box and then a new emotion set in I went from being scared of the needles to thankful and excited, these medications are going to help Greg and I achieve our goal to be parents!! We now are in count down mode we have not even a month till we begin IVF and I can't even begin to tell you how excited we are to get started!

COUNTDOWN GOALS!

Since we have about a month little less we have decided to relax and enjoy, NO STRESS going into IVF! We spent this weekend doing just that. Friday we went to hobby lobby and got some Project life items to start our album for IVF. For those of you who do not know what project life is its a scrapbook type photo album that is done weekly, we thought this would be perfect to look back on and show our little ones. Can't wait to get started on that as well! Saturday we went and got my computer all fixed up and working again (thats why I am back blogging) and had dinner and fun with some of our friends. Sunday we spent the day relaxing and watching the big superbowl game. Nothing super special but all relaxing and no stress!

I will try my best to update and keep you all posted on our countdown activities and any other important things!


Until then thank you all for your love and support!
XOXO BabyBlues2BabyShoes

Update and New Beginings for 2014!

Hello all so sorry I am such a bad blogger I always plan to update then other things happen and I forget! I promise 2014 will be different!


Anyways let me update you on the journey we have traveled this far. After a BFN (Big Fat Negative) from our 2nd IUI we went on to do a 3rd IUI Dr. said everything looked amazing. Greg and I had talked before hand and agreed that if this 3rd IUI did not work we were going to move on to IVF however we remained positive our 3rd iui would be it! As we started our TWW we both acted as if the IUI had worked and remained super positive. Our Two week wait ended December 27th with a BFN and dang AF came the following day. I had to call the Dr. and fill them in on the negative test and that AF has showed they didn't seem to care and when I asked to talk to someone about IVF they informed me that the next one would be in March, this meaning that they would be strictly working off their schedule and not my cycle I did not get a good feeling from them about the IVF. After talking to Greg about it we agreed to seek a second opinion.


After talking to friends who are currently seeking infertility treatments and those that have been though this before we settled on a Dr. in Thousand Oaks California. I have learned so much through this journey this time I was not going in not knowing anything or unprepared I had 3 pages of question and notes and also had looked up his success rates and other important information, I was able to get us an appointment early in January which was amazing I was informed that our consult appointment would last at least an hour and a half with the dr. getting to know him and going over all options and medical history I was already blown away as our last dr. we saw I think 3 times or so in 3 years. We arrived to our apt with nerves and excitement we were welcomed Dr. Kumar and taken to his office to go over everything. Our appointment was at 11:00 and we left about 2:00pm all our questions were gone over he has power points to show each step in the process went over my medical history and preformed a ultrasound to check on me himself and lastly Greg and I both had blood taken for labs. By the next day I had a phone call from the nurse telling me I was not immune to MMR ( measles, mumps and rubella) and that I would need a booster before proceeding with treatments. Easier said then done getting the MMR was no easy task but I in the end I got the shot and in 30 days we are able to proceed with IVF!


We had a nurse appointment this last week which went over cost and what insurance cover, meds, schedule and all that fun stuff as it looks now we will be starting IVF end of February retrieval will be in march and then transfer will be in April! I plan to keep you all updated on each step as we go.


Current status is we are waiting on AF and then from then we have 1 month till we start our protocol for IVF! next month we plan to take a mini trip before all the dr. appointments and other things begin!    


Thank you so much for all the love and support!


BabyBlues2BabyShoes!

Two weeks is over...

Well it's been 17 days since my dreaded two week wait has been over..... And I hate to inform you all that we got a big fat negative! Ugh I felt like a failure lucky for me I have an amazing man who stood beside me and told me all is ok we will try and try again.

Lovely Mother Nature arrived and I called to start round two iui and was sad to hear we needed to skip this cycle due to the fact my right side would be the side to ovulate and my right side is damaged.  Waiting for a month is the worst.

We will be starting round 2 iui in September and until then we are going on a mini vacation and enjoying each other with out the stress and worry.

Please continue to pray for us and that we get our baby shoes!

Round #1 IUI

I went back to the Dr. on the 8th and had an ultrasound to see how big and how many follicles I had....I ended up having 2 good size ones on the left side which is my good side and 1-2 on my right side. They had me do one more shot of the follistim 75iu and then had me trigger with the noveral that night at 10:30pm I was a little freaked out since my husband is at work by then to who could give me my shot it is a 2 1/2 inch needle and all of it must go into the muscle :/ I was so blessed to have my friend Nikkie who loves that stuff give it to me what a LIFE SAVER!!! She is amazing and didn't even feel a thing till the next day!! We were set for the 10th at 8:15am for drop off and 10:30am for the iui...... We dropped off and came back and I was so nervous but all went well Dr. said we had good mobility and the whole process took 5 min maybe lol then I laid on my left side for about 15min and was able to go home! Now I am in my waiting period to know if this will be our month!!


Please understand we will know if this took or not earlier than most women know they are even pregnant due to knowing so soon we will not update this blog or post on social media till we are in the safe zone!! If this does not work we will also not be posting right away we will need time to dry the tears and prepare for round #2!! If I get my BFP it will be so hard not to tell you all.

until then please keep us in your thoughts and prayers and the waiting game is the worst!!!


Love you all and thank you for the support!!!


*praying for babyshoes**!!!!

Round 1 IUI Update... sorry its late!

Since my last update we started treatment for IUI I started 75iu injections of follistim every morning for 7 days then went in for another ultrasound to check for mature follicles.... We were feeling super positive and hopeful more so than any other round we have done up to that point, my ultrasound apt was June 14th which was the day after our 4 year wedding anniversary what a gift we thought that would be! Well my mother in law got to come with me to my apt since Greg works third shift so what was nice it was a packed waiting room which is never a problem when I go. After waiting for an hour it was our turn to go back women look at you with such sympathy when the DR. comes and calls you personally and then asks you how your doing and rubs your back and says kind things I am sure the other ladies were thinking what the heck is wrong with her!! anyways we go back and start the oh so fun ultrasound NOT! and Dr. says well the right side has 2 good mature follicles ready and then lets look at the left he says "hummm..." ok not good and then tells me left side has none zip nada nothing! my heat sank because my mother in law and I were telling each other we were in the good news line. And being that no one knows whats wrong with my right side we talked and he told me we were done for that cycle and to call with the start of my next cycle UGH!!! so we came home I told Greg and we waited!!


Good old Mother Nature sent my cycle and so I called the Dr. and made my apt. which was this last Monday the 1st now normally when I go its ultra sound and then they tell you ok lets order meds and give me my plan of action.... This time I had the ultrasound and started treatment right then!!! and they doubled my dosage with the goal of having good follicles on the left and the right :) tomorrow is my last day at the double dose and then will go back to the 75iu for a few more days and back to the Dr. on the 8th!!! Please say a prayer for us that this round will be the round to give us those baby shoes!!

I will post again on the 8th everyone have a safe and happy 4th of July!

MRI/HSG reults update

After my Hsg/MRI I was set to go to the Dr. for the results on 6/613 which would have been today however the Dr. called me Tuesday and wanted me in the office that afternoon since I had prior plans I had to schedule for yesterday at 2:30pm which left a whole day of what ifs and wondering why they were calling me in... another worry for me was I normally see the nurse practitioner no one see the dr. unless they have a complicated case. So yesterday Greg and I went to the Dr. after waiting what seemed like forever and I mean FOREVER! The dr. came in and explained that all my tests showed some kind of abnormality in my uterus which was big news to us, he explained in the HSG it showed only half a uterus but since I had had one prior which showed a whole he was not that concerned since half a uterus does not just get up and walk away LOL. Next we went over the MRI and he said that showed a whole uterus but again abnormal he said it tilts to the left which can cause that abnormality if it being larger on one side and not the other. After going over all that he gave us options 1. being surgery full open me up invasive surgery to look at my uterus and see what is going on. 2. just act as its a normal uterus that is tilted and proceed or 3. forget it all and go with IVF. after drilling the dr. about the surgery we decided nothing would be accomplished from that so 1 was out the window, 3 is our last option so we decided to go with 2 and proceed with iui treatment. so after all that worry we have decided to go with our previous plans....

We will be starting injections and the iui process very soon I will keep you updated till then but after a certain point I will have to leave you all hanging for a bit if this works which we are hoping and praying I still do not want to tell anyone till my safe 6 weeks and 3 day mark at least. and if this does not I might need a few days to pick myself up and carry on.

Prayers and thoughts are greatly appreciated!

 I do understand most of you have no idea what its like to go through this and please be understanding I will and am a bit sensitive to baby talk and such especially on the meds I will have hot flashes and mood swings and I apologize now :) it will all be worth it when I am holing my baby or babies!

Thank you all for the support and can't wait to see what God has in store for us through this journey!

Open closed open!!!

Well since I now have internet back its been since my last post that we had been without!

After the HSG that we were told my tubes were closed we had a follow up with the Dr. and she told us she believed the test was wrong and that she just had a gut feeling that my tubes were open. We had a few options we could go with that HSG and start IVF, or we could have another HSG and see if they were open or closed and go from there. After going over all the details of IVF and talking we decided to go ahead with another HSG to see if in fact my tubes were open.... I went back and had the test done over and found that my left tube was open and he believes that my right is also but wants further testing to be sure!!! I will be going tomorrow to have a MRI on my pelvis and hope we can see for sure then. While we are waiting on tests Greg and I were able to meet with a wonderful woman who has shared her journey with adoption and has really opened our hearts to that. I was also able to go to Atlanta for a It works Boot Camp to take my mind off of everything and that was amazing now that I am home and have my internet get ready to take this ride with me!!! will share more tomorrow after my test!